do you know how it feels to wake up everyday knowing that the person you love has left you because of what you did? do you know how it feels like to not know how to handle everyday coz you're like a headless chicken, walking and never knowing where you're headed? a heavy heart is what you keep in that chest of yours and you walk around the whole day with your horn down frowing coz you feel like the most stupid person in the world.. but you are sure that that person is the one you will ever want to share kisses and hugs with.. and now because of how you've been to that person that you still love even if he/she has left you, your sunshine has turned its back on you.. giving you only cold dark nights..

every night, you spend it crying.. when the morning comes, it's no different.. even at random times of the day, even when you're in public, sometimes you can't stop the tears from falling.. especially when everything reminds you of him/her.. even the littlest things matter now.. every memory you relive.. coz you were the happiest when you were with him.. every time you spent together you wished never ended..

that person you love was also the one who taught you values you'll carry on for life.. he/she has become your ray of light.. but sometimes your selfishness and hardheadedness got in the way of things.. but you like the way you are.. coz he/she has changed you.. for the better.. no more doing those things that hurt you.. no more doing things that hurt other people.. but yes. because of you're jealousy and anger and doubtful nature, you drove him off the wall..

now you realize what it means when they say you don't know what you've got til it's gone.. you love him/her so.. you regret doing the shitty things you did before.. only this time, it might be too late.. this is how you love everyday ever since he/she left.. knowing that you could've done things differently to avoid what just happened between the two of you.. right now all you have is a deep pain in your heart that never goes away.. a wound that keeps bleeding.. a pain that shoots down your spine.. paralyzes you til you aren't able to do anything.. you can't function right.. your mind is scattered.. or should i say your mind and heart are all focused on one thing and everything else didn't matter anymore..

you just want him/her back.. you would do whatever just to get your sunshine back.. coz he/she's the only one that can ease the pain.. even if people around you say otherwise..


some people have to learn the hard way sometimes..


now dealing with the pain is something i have to learn..